I Was In Love with Paul Walker

And no, I never met him.  But the thing is I felt like I knew him.  In fact, I based my character Adonis after the cool, sexy, totally handsome essence that is Paul Walker.  He will always live on in my mind.  He is one of the finest men that I have ever seen--on screen and off.

In Love, Laughter and Lies I wanted Tia to have a meaningful fling with a blond beach boy and Paul Walker immediately came into view.  He was the epitome of my vanilla dream man.  Tall, blonde, easy-going, laid-back and wealthy.  He inspired me in ways I don't have the words to express.

It was love at first sight for me when he lit up the screen in The Fast and The Furious.  If I ever got jungle fever I wanted it to be with Paul.  I downloaded screen savers of his image.  I spent hours on the Internet looking at his photos.  I learned that he starred in Pampers commercials as a baby and that he was a teenage heart throb.

I loved the way he walked, talked and looked.  It was something about the way he moved that intrigued me.  What I wouldn't do to be able to wrap my fingers around his golden locks.  So what, if he was years younger?  That never stopped my imagination from imagining what it would be like to lie in his muscular arms.

I wondered what he smelled like.  What his favorite food was.  His favorite color or song. Did he like to watch TV?  Go to concerts? And of course, what would it be like to look into those gorgeous blue eyes?

Paul had soul.  Blue-eyed soul.  He touched my soul.  I've never been a groupie before but I would gladly have been his if I were ever anywhere he was.

Rarely have I cried when a celebrity passed.  But when my 19 year old daughter called me with the news I burst out crying.  Hoping it was in Internet prank I rushed her off the phone so that I could go to the Net for verification of the horrible news.  It was true.

I was so twisted I didn't even stop to think how my boyfriend felt watching me cry for a man I never met.  Even my 22 year old son offered his condolences to mom.

It wasn't just Paul's good looks and acting chops.  He was beloved by millions.  All that knew him said that he was a terrific guy.  In my heart I know its true.

The editors of dictionaries world-wide should have a photo of Paul Walker by their definition of classically handsome.

Rest well you beautiful soul.  You will be forever missed and forever loved.